Test Drive - Teague Gray

so theres a few things I just cant hide,
how meaningless shit crashes to my side,
things that dont make sense anymore,
seem to have me banged up creepin allover the floor.

Theres nothing I can do, but stay awhile and listen,
I need to break free from this guilty prison,

chorus:
and take my life for a test drive,
see how high I can fly
over my problems and many more,
see how far I can soar.
I just wanna knw....
WHAT YOU PUT ME HERE FOR!

heads messed up dont really knw why..
I try to make sense of the world and deny
the fact that I have no clue what I want to do
when everything else in my life seems through

Theres nothing I can do, bit stay awhile and listen,
I need to break free from this guilty prison,

chorus :
and take my life for a test drive,
see how high I can fly
over my problems and many more,
see how far I can soar.
I just wanna knw....
WHAT YOU PUT ME HERE FOR!

you said you had plans for me.. that everything is meant to be..
I just want to know... what you put me here for...

chorus //
end

wow I wrote this in 7 minutes xD its probably terrible

deafening Silence

when words are not found, where emotions are not shown
where the need for communication has immensly grown,
You find urself wandering amongst the dried leaves of solitude,
you want to reach out but instead you retract cos ur not in the mood.
Theres a calm wind that blows across, soothing your pain,
almost like the breeze that blows before the rain.

your closed to urself, but is this where you want to be?
cut out from the world, far away from me?
I wished for more better days ahead,
the thoughts of you still linger in my head.
tormented and frustrated I cannot see,
the light you shine, trying to guide me..
i squint, I try... only to catch a glimpse of the afterlight,
realizing...I was wrong, and you as always.. were right.

Being by urself is not how I want you to be,
if anything troubles you, share it with me..
I will be there, when the world has turned its back on you
most of all to prove to you... that I love you

Belated Comments - depression

So Ive been away for awhile.. actually Ive been writing stuff on Facebook.. and I keep forgetting to update this.. So i thought Id keep them individual.. for reasons beyond me.

heres a question.. is it bad to be serious all the time? and is it bad to Joke most of the time.. the fact that you dont take things too seriously.. atleast the unimportant ones that you can brush off or things people say that arent true.. or small arguements with the loved one.. these are minor Issues.. dont take things too personally... but life is short.. You cant waste your time being serious n pissed off at anyone or anything.. which is why I never hold a grudge.. unless its personal and a huge huge huge thing.. fair enough there are times.. where you should never talk to someone...

And depression.. I know.. Ive gone through my share of it.. and it never turns out too gud.. whats the point? u just had something bad happen to you... so why waste more time being more sad about it? why not live it up a little? and go enjoy urself.. and take ur mind off things? I think nothing can make you so depressed that you wouldnt laugh for a joke.. or a LOLCATS pic.. haha.. life is too short to live it in depression, you only live once... and even that is just enjoyable for 30 years (16-46) or more... the rest of it is just a struggle.. but that doesnt mean you should sulk it away..

remember.. shit happens.. you just gotta clean it up, put some air freshner and move on..(making sure it dont stink nemore)

cheers

Ecology from Sources Anonymous

Why is it that girls say they want a sensitive guy but really they want a guy that’s sensitive towards THEIR feelings?

Why do girls think they know what romance is? Cuz they created it.

WTF is ‘love’. Love is just a word, it doesn’t have a definite meaning so how can people be satisfied with someone saying ‘I love you.’ Maybe just maybe people should tell people why they love them, before the repetitively use the line ‘I love you.’

Satisfaction is the greatest form of happiness. Why? Think about it for a second. What can possibly bring greater joy than being totally satisfied? The trick is, you have to be honest with yourself; you can’t cheat your own satisfaction. So lowering goals to reach satisfaction doesn’t achieve the desired effect. So what do you do? If most peoples goals are imaginative an unreachable, I guess the best way of life is the ‘don’t worry, be happy’ theory. Right?

Some things in life just can’t be explained by science. Like a kiss, there’s something about the right kiss that just feels… supernatural. It can’t be explained by the laws of nature or the chemistry of the body. Its small things like this that give people hope for larger beliefs, like God. So does god really exist or is he just a figment of our insecurity with the unexplainable?

Don’t think true love can actually be described. It’s just something we say to distinguish the person you end up with from the rest of the people you “fell in love with.” It would be tragic if we didn’t have a special word for everything (sarcasm). Also I wonder what that makes your previous loves, “fake loves?”

Hmmmm…

Society probably amounts for about 75% of all unhappiness. Come on society let a player play. Basically society is bunch of idiots who predetermined what’s important in all of our lives before we were even born. Money, looks, education….. what if I got a bunch of people together and we made, cow milking abilities, how far you can throw a sewing machine and ability to open doors the most important things in life. Sigh.

People all over the world for ages have been trying to define human nature. What’s the point of defining human nature? We’re too ignorant to learn from our mistakes anyway. So what’s the point, to reveal our flaws? I vote STFU about it and bask in our ignorance. It’s less painful.

Until recently, I never realized how much one little thing about someone can linger in your mind for so long. I miss the word ‘pardon’… miss the way she annoyed me into doing anything… miss the way she tried to understand sports… miss the way she turns red after she takes a shot… miss her crying when she listens to boys 2 men… miss how she highlights my textbooks when we study… miss her trying to outargue the unarguable…miss her ‘omg, shutup ******!’ face… miss her compliments, always meant more than anyone elses… most of all I miss her presence.

Someone was talking about perfect love yesterday… it sounded so unbelievably unreachable but when you think about it…. any love that actually survives is perfect. No matter how rocky a relationship is as long as you stick through it the love is flawless. Basically, there’s no such thing as an imperfect love.

You think humans were made smart so that they can understand how foolish they really are?

Theory of humantivity.

Degree of success= (Difference made) (Personal Satisfaction)^2/Selfishness

Answer can be negative… lol

Pretty much every action we make in our lives is selfish. There’s no such thing as an unselfish act. So, I think all we can hope for is that our selfishness makes a positive difference in the world.

Nietzsche’s will to power… we learn not to gain knowledge but to gain power over certain knowledge…

Opinions… if you agree with any opinion… you have no opinion…

Really real things don’t change at all…. but if something seems to not change isn’t that just as good.. if in our conscious its unchanged… it hasn’t ‘really’ changed…

Reverance

In light of more obvious matters, points which seem so clear to us after it has all happened, never seem to grace our mind before the matter. It is always preceding a certain event that we obtain a "ohhh yea.. " understanding of the event. Its a dilemma that has been here since the beginning of man. Why do we not understand issues at that time, but realize it was wrong or we could've done it another way, later.

I have encountered this problem personally many a time. It just doesn't hit you clearly at the time. No matter how much you think about it, you can never think of the correct way to handle an issue until you have handled it and then realized it. Is this effect called After-Occurence-Understanding? or POST-UNDERSTANDING? It is just the way things are. In this crazy confused world. We have to understand without revering the consequences, and take that step to making things right and handling the situation.

Back to tha Bloggage

wow.. its been quite awhile.. since Ive got ages of time on my hands, thought Id go back to blogging... I have to get back to my artistic roots, finish up some poems.. accompany them with some art.. damn man Ive been out of it.. getting back to it soon..

anyways.. My better half left for Aussie.. so im missing her loads... but I feel I should express myself through this site.. so.. thats what Im gonna do..