What is our greatest fear??

I recently watched a reletively old movie, called "Coach Carter" a true story about a High school basketball team and their coach. The line from this movie which stuck in my head and made so much sense was the answer to the question "What is your greatest fear??"

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is
that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our
darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be
brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not
to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the
world. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within
us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our
own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do
the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence
automatically liberates others."

ZOMG I'M GOING BONKERS!!!!!!

Holy crap.!!! I have jus come to realize tht I am going nuts cos of this idiot box upgrade they call a cmputer.!!! I'm starting to use chatting comments such as "LOL" or "ROFL" in my everyday speech... Im also starting to make lame jokes related to comps...this Software engineering degree is driving me insane!!! Also the fact tht ive become addicted to MMORPG's isnt helping!! late nights on Lineage 2 are not helping my morale or self esteem or my sleeep!!!

I hav also noted the fact that I am using many of these gaming terms and 1337 (Leet) words in ordinary chat to ordinary ppl and they be like "Wtf is he talking abt??"

The coursework is almost done n its driving me insane...I cant get my right hand off the keyboard cos my left hand holds it back and vise versa... I have so much work to do as well, which explains the lack of bloggage..ooooooo... new word..."bloggage"

that reminds me ... my dictionary and some words I use :

lolizzle :(verb) "Laughing out loud...in a gangsta way"
Nyerr : "OK "or "SHAPE" (reluctantly)
MotherWhore : (noun) well an insult...
booga-booga : "hello" in a sudden flashy tone
eh? : "WTF?"
bleh : "cant be bothered"
byarr : "heheh i just insulted u!!"
meh : "here"
fuktard : "F**king retard"
Moona : "money"
Zoogla : (noun) "great god of Craziness"
Trizzler : (noun) polite way to call someone an "Asshole"
Humongerous : (adjective) "extremely gi-normous" - obtained from Beppy (c)
Gi-normous : (adjective) "Extremely LARGE!!!!"
ZOMG : "Oh my god"
KTHX : "k thankyou"

So much to do..so little time

hehe I lukd at my last post...n it was quite awhile ago...this proves I'm not one of those regular bloggers hu make an entry every single day..but hey..atleast im a blogger...well jus picked up my Cuzins hu came from aussie...they gonna be here for 3 weeks...so shud be loads of fun..and APPLE REPLACED MY IPOD !!! yes!!!! success after a month of emailing and getting my aunt to return it..haha..

I dnt want this to seem like a boring blog entry abt wht happened today..so as usual I shall end it with sumthing special from me...

//arghh all I see is concrete..trees hav given way
the colors of green been replaced by grey..
as the world turns and things change
it suffocates me n u..makin us faint
and it takes everything out of living
inside us, everything its killing...
it takes from u cos U havent given
you get what u deserve, and if not given,
everything u have will be taken...

U think I'm to blame? accuse me I dont care.
it doesnt mean wen u wake up it will all be there
tie ur wrists to stop urself from doing wrong
Ur mind says wht you've doing all along,
ur consciousness whispers in ur ears
"your slowly diggin ur own grave filled wit ur fears"
as u stare ur destiny dead in the eyes..
u hear ur sins...and ur desperate lies..
what you said , what you did..u can never fake
and now all the punishment...u must take

Mumblings of a prophet man

Has society given us the power to speak our minds? i doubt it...except for the odd Martin luther King ...or Gandhi...noone seems to stand up n shout out wht they think..well look where it got King anyway...he got shot...tht kinda tells u to keep ur mouth shut..heheh..after much debate I've come to realize, its not me hu decides hu i am...wht kind of person I am...no not me..but society....no matter wht u do...u cannot change the way society looks at u...once society has branded u..there is no going back...

are we faced with these "labellings" cos we, as humans are social animals? then wht abt a Hermit....does he have a so called "society" wud he judge a person.?.if sumone told him sumthin...wud tht make him label sumone? well ofcourse if sumone was there talkin to him..he wudnt be a hermit now wud he?? wht decides his beliefs? who is his society?

all i think is tht its bullshit for people to judge one another without really knwing tht person....and even if tht person makes a mistake..theres always forgiveness...tht shudnt go ungiven...to err is human..but to forgive..is divine..

The Final test

Just me and my shadow on this perilous journey
through times of defeat, and times of Glory
towards the plains of the truth untold,
where laughter is lost..and sorrow is gold.
the path is rugged..with stones and fire..
yet i push forward...my life hangs by a wire..
the place i have to go is far away
but I'll never give up...no f*ckin way!

its the opposite of earth, where darkness is bright..
where the sun shines till noon..rising at night,
a place where I call my home, where I am right.
where objections of society are nowhere in sight.

its a place where the forsaken live,
after they've offered all they had to give..
made this journey to their final resting place..
where no more perils they'll ever have to face
finally a place that I would never have to hide..
only other thing I want..is u by my side...
but I guess, you always cant have everything
your always gonna be missin something..
my feet are worn, its here I rest...
happy and contempt..that I've passed my final test

My Alter Ego

random stuff

Fort MinoR -

I've always admired the way Mike Shinoda puts his feelings into words...whether it be with linkin park...or with his new project FortMinor...he has always delivered songs with powerful lyrics....

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it..